I would have been 18 weeks today, and I woke up this morning realizing that. In the next 2 weeks I would have had my big ultrasound. I would have a nice-sized belly by now. It's so hard to think about, and now my hubby is in the camp that he doesn't want anymore kids ever. It's a little bit more than I can chew. If this baby had kept growing, then we'd have a sibling for Andrew, and he was okay with that. I am so happy with just having Andrew; I just keep thinking about what could have been.