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Thursday, October 20, 2011

I want to be Jim and Pam.

The Office followers, you know who I'm talking about. I have seen every episode. In fact, I only got into the show a year-and-a-half ago when I was on maternity leave with my daughter. It was the early days and she was eating all the time and my sister has the entire collection on DVD, so I put the first one in, got addicted, and finished the whole series.

To this day, I cannot watch the episode where Jim and Pam get married without bawling my eyes out.

Does this fairytale romance exist in real-life? Do people really have relationships like that? I want that. I read books and lose myself in the novels and live vicariously through the characters. I think those do exist, but I wonder how long that spark lasts. Are they just rare? Is it eternal [the new love feeling]? I'm sure for some it is, and some couples really do have that much love for each other all their lives. Are some men just the silent type who keep their feelings in, and they just don't get all mushy and romantic, even if they love their significant other?

I love my husband, but I really do live for my kids. They make me feel whole and complete and loved and special and I am their whole world, as they are mine. I feel that that is enough, but sometimes I find myself wanting to be looked at adoringly, or crushed at, or winked at. Maybe I'm just past my prime.

For now, I will just watch Jim and Pam, even if they are just characters on t.v. and maybe nobody does have a relationship like that.

1 comment:

Carrie R. said...

I've just started getting into The Office and I love Jim and Pam. I can totally understand what you mean. I know my husband loves me and he shows me in his own ways. But how I would love for him to bring me home flowers or leave little love letters around. I used to think if I did those things for him, maybe he would pick it up. That was a fail.
I would like to think there are relationships out there like that, but I'm with you in wondering how long that lasts. My husband was very much like that when we were dating. And now not so much. What is it about marriage that makes us think we don't need to romance our spouses anymore? That's a question to ponder.